Lapse

Badminton was great. Especially after a break of more than a year I think. I don't even remember playing the game during NS too. Make that two years then. Okay, the company was great too. =)

Clocked ten click just now as a make-up for missing out on Sunday's training. And I just realised that Crystal Dew isn't that far from ECP! Yes, even though I've done the route so many times before, I usually start from Kembangan itself, after train-ing from Aljunied. Haha. Met Kimberly again before going down the PCN at the MRT. Second such coincidence made her think that I do this like every day or something, but no I don't.

Running along the tracks yielded some interesting sights. Today was literally cross-country with the ground still wet and soggy with earlier precipitation. It was mud, soil, sweat and tears. Tears because my shoes and nice running socks were covered with well, mud. Then there were people walking on springy poles near Kembangan. I don't know what you call those. There was also this couple making out under the track near Paya Lebar. In the region of mud, soil, sweat and tears. How romantic.

Running away won't solve your problems, but running makes you exhausted enough not to think too much about it. It's like getting high on alcohol or drugs for the temporary relief.

But the problems are still there. And sometimes in your tiredness, they tend to get magnified beyond what they really are. But don't worry, I don't do drugs. =) But my knees still hurt from all the jumping and pivoting and running.

Anyway, I've really got to control and restrain myself from doing silly or stupid things that may jeopardise the status quo now. Part of me says it's not very nice to cause trouble for others, especially if others are going through some confusing times too. Then again, another part of me says that it's better to be honest and let it out before it consumes me whole, leading to the jeopardy of the status quo. Either way, it's just a matter of timing, and the status quo may inevitably be changed forever.

So. It's just a matter of time. Now, the long process of waiting and deliberating.