Blown

I'm still struggling to come to terms at how much I spent indulging this week. Take example on Wednesday's night's off. On the pretext of saving money, I decided not to go home, since taking a cab back from Khatib would cost quite a bit. But I ended up spending more on dinner and snacks - something like what $30? Wah lao. Heart pain. If that wasn't enough, there was supper @ Dunman on Friday and shopping and dinner just now. Woo hoo. The only good excuse I have is that, well hey it's my birthday month after all. Just some small treats for myself only what. Haha. No.

Didn't ask that many people along for dinner just now either. It's the exam period, I didn't have much time to plan such an outing and it's only the 19th birthday anyway. Maybe I'll celebrate my 21st with a bash or something. Haha. See how lah. $$$ problem I should think. But dinner was not bad. More indulging next Sunday man. I. Enjoy. Good. Food. I must say. Unfortunately none of the nutrients seem to convert themselves in mass. And I haven't been putting on much weight. =( I need that critical "weight difference" between myself and the 155 mm rounds that all artillery specs need to be able to carry around. Ah well. Weak lah what to do. Anyhow, I'd be celebrating my actual birthday in... Khatib Camp. In 12 days time to be exact. Boo lousy idea. What to do. At least I'd have my celebrations before that I guess.

The course's into its 4th weeks now. We're gonna learn how to drive, before deploying outfield. So far so good. Passed the required hands on tests. Thank God! But it's not easy making friends here I must say. Sure, Detachment 5's all made up of nice people, you know like me. Haha. But beyond the detachment... Well it's not that easy lah I must say. Partly because we don't train together much, and most of us still have our loyalty to our SISPEC company friends. It'll take some time lah. Hmmm...

You're really too impressionable. Quite worrying to see you hanging around and getting so easily influenced by bad company. I hope you know what you're doing. You're actually a really nice person. You just have to be yourself. It kinda irks - no saddens me to see you acting and behaving like... I don't know who. No point trying to follow the crowd. Especially the wrong crowd. You don't have to do that to "fit in". I guess there's a part of me that like you too. I guess all have. Oh well.