Lowest Ebb

The holiday season's more or less over now, so I guess there won't be many pretty photographs to be uploaded anymore, unlike in previous entries about Christmas and the New Year.=(

On another note, really hoping and praying that somehow, God'd open up your heart and ears for you to be receptive to what I'm gonna tell you soon. It's been sometime, and I just thought it'd be better for us to be reconciled rather than to live in complete avoidance from each other. Well if you're not ready to move on, and of course, it'd be really really sad, but I hope you understand why I'm doing this. Oh well.

Anyway, we had the first young adult CBSI session on Sunday. New group - a merger of sorts, between the 19, 20-year old guys and Godpa's BS group, with a few newcomers. Was alright. Kinda glad that we're starting on Romans. A most appropriate book, especially at a time when I'm struggling with some aspects of my faith.

Went down to Beach Road in what might be my last trip for some time. Sewed on my unit patches and accompanied Jon Ma to get the stuff needed for enlistment and BMT, which as of today, is a mere two days away. Advised him on the things to get, and the things not to.Really brought back some memories from last April, in which yours truly was the one going in. Fear, apprehension, anxiety... excitement? Well, a mix of feelings I bet. Haha. Anyway,all the best to you Jon, being the first of the four to enlist! =) Hold on to your faith dearly in light of the numerous trials and temptations one will most probably face, and be a good Christian testimony to others, in the course of serving the nation!

It's been relatively relaxed for the past two days (managed to finish my CBSI homework and my whole stack of Reader's Digest, TIME, Newsweek & other magazines! And type this blog entry too!) - the calm before the storm, before we go outfield again tomorrow and before 1 Alpha, and before we officially take over the battery completely from the outgoing specialists. Yup, we're trying out best to enjoy whatever precious free time we have left. Haha.

Was doing my QT Monday morning when it really struck me. Checking back with my CBSI notes, it seemed to confirm the same thing. Coincidence? Maybe. Then I started flipping through the mentoring material, and all three articles spoke of the assurance of salvation, the renewal of faith and of relying on God for strength and providence, instead of burning out by relying on oneself. All these issues and more - things like not being good enough for certain tasks, certain issues etc., were on my mind, especially on Sunday night. Especially that night. Haven't felt that that for a long time. Which is in some ways, bad I guess.

That is, before talking and reasoning things out with a fellow group leader and much prayer. I'm still not fully back yet, but at least, it's enormously comforting to know that there are still people who listen and reassuring to know who you work for, who'll always care for you and who you belong to. You were right about most things Marianne. Thanks! =)